The Year of Change Continued

Wow, I didnt know how true that post title would become. There are alot of different things going on in life and I dont know how to process them all, or if I want to process them all.

A new job which is going well and I feel as though it will open up new opportunities for me in the future. I'm getting ready to start back at some classes that will help with work so I am excited about that.

A new car! Yay, I got a new car. I am so happy, there were so many things wrong with my old one and then I found out the motor was going out and needed a new one so I am glad to now have something different. And this one will stay clean!

New feelings..this one has been a difficult one to figure out. I feel as though it will be a long journey. I feel as though I have been living someone else's life and not my own. I feel as though I am beginning all over again, trying to find my way through this maze. Some ways are dead ends and some continue down a path that seems to never end. I'm not quite sure where I am or where I am going but either way I want to travel and get there as me.

I'm just not happy with myself and where I am. This has always been a struggle even when I was young, trying to find what makes me happy or content even. Everyone says that you are the only one that knows what will make you happy and you have to do it yourself, but I still dont know what that is. For the first time in my life I have a plan. I know what I want to do. I have goals to move towards and accomplish.

So I am trying to do my best, I'm trying to experience this new journey with excitement and passion.